Spiritual Contracts and My Agreement with Ayahuasca

Spiritual contracts are agreements we made before reincarnating into this life; these commitments are with ourselves and others. Consider these contracts as promises that we agreed to fulfill for the purpose of our growth as human and Divine beings. Knowing our spiritual contracts helps us understand our place in the world. They are guiding lights on our spiritual path and the pursuit of them helps us create a meaningful life.

Our soul knows of our spiritual contracts, but the ego is born unaware; thus, we must rediscover our obligations. Through a synchronistic combination of choice, desire, destiny, and remembrance, we bring to light our promises. We also have several spiritual contracts and I liken the totality of them to be a life syllabus of lessons for our evolution.

There are different ways to determine our spiritual contracts; the most obvious are the things that we are passionate about. Our deepest desires are clues to some of our solemn promises. Desires such as needing to create and contribute can tell you about your specific commitments. For example, I am compelled to share my spiritual journey with others, this desire comes from my commitment to spread the word of God — a promise that I made coming into this reincarnation.

There are no limits to our spiritual contracts; they can be about love, loss, joy, pain, solitude, service, and so on. The more important the life issue for you, the more likely it is part of a promise you made.

Some of the ways you can learn your spiritual contracts are through meditation, spiritual revelation, shamanic journeying, working with plant medicine, and having a near death experience. No matter the approach, I advise that no one outside of you, like the healer you’re working with, should tell you what your promises are. The revelation of your commitments should come from within. It is more compelling this way, and it goes to creating the belief system that supports your ability to accomplish it. Having others tell you what you “should be doing” rarely works out. It’s best when you decide to remember and choose to keep your promise on your own volition.

I learned of my spiritual contract with Ayahuasca about five years ago.

I was drawn to watch the movie, Ayahuasca: Vine of the Soul. I didn’t know much about Ayahuasca then, and I had yet to participate in a ceremony, but as I was watching, I heard the spirit of Ayahuasca speak to me. She spoke of her movements, that she must leave the Amazon and come to the United States and Canada; she claimed to be doing this to “build her army.” She said she needed to recruit people to protect her — the Amazon and nature. Then, she told me I am to help inspire others to join her army.

Since that day, I’ve had a relationship with the spirit of Ayahuasca. I connect with her spirit often, especially in nature. She nurtured my love for our planet, instructing me many times to lay my hands in the dirt to listen and feel her. She became my symbol for Mother Nature.

Ayahuasca visits me in my dreams, visions, and meditations. In one memorable vision, I saw how I anchored a large rock that was tethered to my waist — a symbol of my connection and promise to this existence — deep into the earth as a grounding ritual. Sometime later, when I participated in ceremony, she showed me this rock and it became a lifeline during a challenging part of my healing and spiritual experience.

In keeping with my promise, I respectfully speak of Ayahuasca to others, honestly affirming that although her healing and teaching methods can be jarring, one cannot help but feel the motherly love she has for the children of Earth. I also wrote a book about my experiences with her, along with my work with psychedelic mushrooms. In the book, I describe the other gifts and revelations that plant medicine has offered me which of course lead to the learning of more spiritual contracts. (Click here to learn about this book.)

Once you learn your spiritual contracts, you will know your place in the world — why you’re here — and henceforth, you will never be the same. Recalling your spiritual commitments grounds you, connects you to your faith, and gives you a compelling reason to exist.

When we are aware of our spiritual agreements, they can become our life goals. Then, our promises — that become our beliefs — help steer our thoughts and actions so that our life choices support our spiritual journey.

Ayahuasca has been a guiding star, teacher, and mother symbol; it is through my experiences with her that I truly saw myself — beyond the trappings of ego — and uncovered why I’m here. Also, I would be remised if I didn’t mention that it was by the will of Jesus Christ (a revelation that I learned much later) that lead me to work with her and everything else that I’ve experienced, including writing the book.

Although we can be cognizant of our spiritual contracts, it doesn’t mean we’ll be perfect in following or achieving them. We only have to think about our failed commitments of the past to understand how challenging it is to keep a promise. With that said, our spiritual obligations are powerful and preordained, and so I believe we always fulfill them in the way we’re supposed to.

No matter how we go about learning and pursuing our spiritual contracts, it all adds to the meaning of our lives. Simply, before we were born, we gave ourselves an itinerary: we wanted to experience some memorable moments, we wanted to connect with certain people, and we wanted to learn lessons that would help us evolve. Most of all, we wanted to come here — we planned it — and perhaps remembering this spiritual promise, where we said yes to this human life, we can be encouraged to follow through on why we came here.

With love,

Jeanne

If you enjoyed this article, you may want to read the book I wrote called, Unification: Bridging Your Ego and Divine Self Consciousness. In it, I describe a way of life shown to me by the Light bodies — angelic beings whom I encountered during meditation with plant medicine. For over a year, I worked with the Light bodies through channeling, meditation, and plant medicine, to give rise to the spiritual path called Unification.

Disclaimer:

This article does not promote or recommend the use of illegal drugs. Ayahuasca and psychedelic mushrooms are illegal in many countries including the United States. This article does not constitute medical advice. As always, please consult your doctor before taking any medicine.

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Plant Medicine, the Unknown, and Facing Scary Stuff

Use plant medicine to go deeper into the unknown and confront, heal, and free yourself of your fears, illusions, and pain.

The unknown comprises what is hidden from us and generally, we view what is unknown to be disconcerting. To the detriment of our ego, the unknown is everywhere. Our past holds many unknown situations, as does our present; the future, being totally unknown to everyone, seems to be the scariest of all.

How does one feel comfortable with facing the things that are unknown and scary to them?

To begin, we must fix our eyes to see beyond darkness, fear, and pain.

As truth would have it, things are less dark and scary when the light is turned on and the light that brightens our way — so that we are not so fearful and suffer less — comes from within.

It is the light within that illuminates our path, making what is unknown in the past, present, and future less frightening. To enhance our light and clear our vision, we must surrender to and heal what separates us from knowing our light and thus seeing with enlightened clarity; even the smallest step toward these things will prepare us to venture into the unknown.

Plant medicine is a term to describe plants that have healing properties that aid in making us whole in mind, body, and spirit. Many plants can be placed within this category, but there are a select few that are known to bring us to the unknown. Some of these special plants are the vines that make Ayahuasca, the iboga shrub, psychedelic mushrooms, peyote, and the San Pedro cactus. The psychoactive properties of these plants make it possible for us to traverse the unknown and depending on one’s intention, it can open many doors such as providing the ability to confront, heal, and free ourselves from our fears, illusions, and pain.

For the intention to use plant medicine to go deeper into the unknown — so that we may heal ourselves — we must be prepared to confront our shadow.

Our shadow is made of our fears, illusions, and pain; it is our shadow that causes our suffering. Suffering is a catalyst for our growth; it can lead us to change, strengthen our resolve, and add meaning to our lives. With that said, life doesn’t have to be about suffering. We can choose to grow through other experiences.

When we are ready to face our shadow and move through suffering, plant medicine, such as those mentioned above, can aid in our effort. Psychedelic plant medicines act as a bridge to the unknown, they can take us to the memories and experiences that fostered our fears, illusions, and pain. In bringing us to those events that created our shadow, we are given the opportunity to resolve them.

How our fears, illusions, and pain are resolved through plant medicine is uncertain; every healing experience is different. However, if one’s intention is to receive a healing through plant medicine, then it would seem that the innate wisdom of the plant knows the best way for each person; “best” being a relative term because many times, the way is quite shocking and painful. Each plant has its own method, some being more gentle than others, but no matter the plant, the healing goal is the same: for us to see our issues in a different way.

In my first ceremony with Ayahuasca some years ago, I went in with the intention to receive a healing. Naive to Mama Aya’s teaching methods, and a bit cocky I might add with my ability to surrender and weather what the medicine had for me, she came in heavy with a right hook that brought on the most gut-wrenching pain I’ve ever experienced; it lasted for hours. Wailing, I didn’t surrender — I succumbed by knock out. She said, “You asked for this,” and so I took the beat down.

Ayahuasca took me to the unknown and showed me who I was not and then revealed who I was. She made me feel the full extent of my illusions — the attachments I had to my ego, body, and experiences — which caused me so much pain. We stayed in this black hole of doubt, fear, and self-deception for what felt like forever, but like a good mother, she stayed through the night, holding my hand while I suffered. After I was all cried out, she laughed at me. Then, she preceded to unveil my eyes to my true nature and long story short — I came away from ceremony altered. (Read more about this experience.)

The psychoactive plants by their chemical make up may heal us in some way, but the real point is that the plant gives us the chance to heal ourselves.

It is by our effort — our ability to surrender to the medicine and experience — that will lead us to the healing we seek. Also, the more conducive the set and setting is to our intention of healing, the more that it will be so. The set and setting is our frame of mind, the intention we have, our guide during the process, the dosage we take, and our surroundings.

Plant medicine can take us away from what we know — our present reality, conditioning, and ego as we perceive it — and bring us into the unknown. The unknown is foreboding, but with eyes honed to see past darkness and the light within to guide our way, we can navigate and explore what is hidden from us and heal ourselves as we are meant to do.

With love,

Jeanne

If you enjoyed this article, you may want to read the book I wrote called, Unification: Bridging Your Ego and Divine Self Consciousness. In it, I describe a way of life shown to me by the Light bodies — angelic beings whom I encountered during meditation with plant medicine. For over a year, I worked with the Light bodies through channeling, meditation, and plant medicine, to give rise to the spiritual path called Unification.

Disclaimer:

This article does not promote or recommend the use of illegal drugs. Many of the substances referenced above are illegal in many countries including the United States. This article does not constitute medical advice. As always, please consult your doctor before taking any medicine.

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Working with Ayahuasca through Spirit Animals

We can work with Ayahuasca through spirit animals to integrate our ceremony experience, stay guided on our journey, and go deeper in our spiritual practice.

When we are called to work with Ayahuasca, we are invited to connect to nature on a deeper level; one of the ways to know Ayahuasca, nature, and ourselves better is by engaging with the spirit animals that are connected to the plant spirit.

spirit animal is the Divine expression of that animal; it is also the combined spiritual energy of the animal species. The spirit animal represents the attributes of the animal, its environment, and its tendencies; it may also be assigned mystical qualities. This information can be used to garner meaningful impressions and guidance for our journey.

For example, the dolphin spirit animal, which represents all dolphins, speaks of its intelligence, grace, and joyfulness. Dolphins are regarded for their amazing senses: using echolocation to know their surroundings and making clicks and whistles to communicate. These skills reflect a highly sensitive sensory awareness and so if a person was working with the dolphin spirit animal, the message may be to pay attention or nurture one’s sensitive sensory abilities. Being mammals, dolphins must come out of the water for air; they are also experts at diving to the depths of the ocean and so these traits can spiritually speak of the ability to work in the conscious and subconscious realms.

When working with spirit animals, we are provided these insights which can be intuitively interpreted to support our spiritual path.

The spirit animals closely related to Ayahuasca are the jaguar, leopard, frog, lizard, and snake. These particular animals can be found in the Amazon and thus have an intimate relationship with the plants; there is also the Amazon river dolphin and if this wondrous creature makes an appearance on your journey — what a blessing that would be! Nevertheless, Ayahuasca may reveal her messages through other animals; every ceremony, integration process, and spiritual journey is unique.

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When spirit animals appear in your ceremony experience, pay close attention to what they look like, the actions they take, the feelings they make you have, the relation to the story you’re experiencing, and if they say anything. This information is valuable to gain a deeper insight into your experience and at helping you understand the significance of your healing; it will also aid in preparing you for the next steps after ceremony. Continuing your personal work after ceremony is key to digesting the experience as well as supporting the healing you received; most would say this is the most important part of the whole spiritual process.

For example, if jaguar spirit appears to you in ceremony, this may be Ayahuasca herself communicating with you and so it is crucial to surrender to her wisdom; this jaguar may also represent another being of high importance and so it would behoove you to give it equal time. Jaguar spirit, in general, is about personal power and your human potential. It appears as a mirror to our actions, a reminder to our self-commitments, and a watcher of our use of power.

The integration period is the time after, as well as the time between ceremonies where you reflect, metabolize, and awaken to the new understandings of your journey which can include but are not limited to: the healing of past trauma, insights on your present, and guidance for your future. Integration may last from a few weeks to several years; there are many lessons to be gleaned from each ceremony.

During the integration period, spirit animals may appear in your field of awareness — in dreams, everyday environment, and social media — to remind you of your ceremonial experience, trigger a knowing, and/or give you a meaningful message about your path. When confronted by the spirit animal, be open to its influence; trust that you can intuit its message and relate to the spirit animal.

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For example, if snake spirit appears to you during and/or after ceremony, this may reflect the direction of your life. Snake spirit is about transformation: shedding and moving away from old ways of being. When you encounter snake spirit, surrender to its guidance: it may be telling you to move forward in your path and/or to stay grounded in your truth and power. Snake comes as a potent medicine for change.

Spirit animals are here to help and guide us; see in them their Divine nature and feel closer to your faith when you interact with them. Create an intention to work with spirit animals, carry a totem of your spirit animal, and regularly commune with them to deepen your relationship. When you approach your next ceremony or any action that deals with your healing and spiritual path, call on them to help you create an intention that is for your highest good. As you work with spirit animals, learning from them in ceremony, heeding their guidance during integration, and calling upon them to create a deeper bond to God and nature, find your spiritual journey buoyed: lifted to higher states of connection, understanding, and presence.

In my last ceremony, I was visited by the energy of Ayahuasca and five black jaguars. Before telling you the message I received or the meaning of this visitation, let me reveal that part of my intention in going to ceremony was to ask what it meant to “join the chorus,” a previous message from my guides that I had trouble understanding. Ayahuasca conveyed to me that joining the chorus was about singing my song, i.e. sharing my gift. As others hear my song — and if it resonated with them — then they would join in and together, we would create the chorus, a community.

Before going to ceremony, I thought in order to join the chorus I had to do something special, to go beyond what I was doing and being already to belong; I had resistance to this, but thankfully, it was not that. It was about continuing to share my particular song and perhaps to sing a little louder — get my diaphragm and heart into it if you will — so that others could hear and join in. At the end of this ceremony experience, Ayahuasca showed up as five black jaguars which I gathered as an invitation. After displaying some resistance, she then asked, “I thought you wanted to join the chorus? Let’s go!” I said yes, and so I left that ceremony running into the jungle with the jaguars.

During integration, I decided to glean more meaning from this entire experience and to follow through on its message of singing my song, by creating a 30-day challenge centered around the black jaguar spirit animal. If you want to read more about this particular ceremony and see what I mean about working with spirit animal in integration, click on these links: 1. last ceremony experience, 2. dream with black jaguars, 3. 30-day integration challenge.

With love,

Jeanne

If you enjoyed this article, you may want to read the book I wrote called, Unification: Bridging Your Ego and Divine Self Consciousness. In it, I describe a way of life shown to me by the Light bodies — angelic beings whom I encountered during meditation with plant medicine. For over a year, I worked with the Light bodies through channeling, meditation, and plant medicine, to give rise to the spiritual path called Unification.

Disclaimer:

This article does not promote or recommend the use of illegal drugs. Ayahuasca is illegal in many countries including the United States. This article does not constitute medical advice. As always, please consult your doctor before taking any medicine.

First published on Samadhi.today on Medium

Featured cover art by @alfredozagaceta

Take Plant Medicine in Sacrament

Take plant medicine in sacrament for your spiritual path to connect with the Divine, deepen your personal practice, and receive gifts of grace and healing.

sacrament is a ceremony with a spiritual significance; it conveys the outward expression of the faith you hold within. When you take plant medicine in a spiritual sacrament, you intend to receive a healing, an initiation, and transformation facilitated by the effects of the plant; this type of ceremony is to be approached with preparation and humility.

Plant medicine is a term synonymously used with psychedelics such as ayahuasca, mushroom, peyote, and iboga to name a few. The naturally occurring psychoactive properties of these plants offer a type of medicine to its users that may provide emotional, mental, and spiritual healing. Most describe a change in their self-perception after working with plant medicine; many who partake in a sacred ceremony with plant medicine experience a spiritual awakening and transformation.

The consumption of these psychoactive plants can facilitate a meeting with the Divine. Whether a person is religious, spiritual, or an atheist, the chance of having an experience with the Divine is available to everyone. The likelihood of such an encounter is greatly increased when the person has done some spiritual work prior to attending the ceremony.

If a person already has faith in God or a higher power, then they can choose to approach taking plant medicine as a sacrament. When we come to a ceremony with the intention that this is a sacrament where we will receive healing, an initiation, and transformation, the experience becomes an expression of our spirituality. The intention establishes the guidelines for the ceremonial event; the clearer our intention, the more in line our experience is to that idea.

Just as people prepare their mind and body to receive a religious sacrament, going into a sacred ceremony with plant medicine also requires preparation; part of this is called “set and setting.”

The set is your current mind state and the setting is your environment: where you are, the Shaman you’re working with, the people around you, and the dose you take. Your intention anchors your mindset and with the thought that you are taking plant medicine in a sacrament, you prime yourself to have a spiritual experience. Thus, if you have the intention to receive a spiritual healing, initiation, and transformation — you will. With that said, the experience may not look and feel like what you expect.

The other part of preparing ourselves to take plant medicine in a sacrament is the spiritual work; this constitutes raising our awareness, recognizing our fears and issues, and practicing meditation and/or prayer. These elements help us arrive at a state of being that is more ready to receive the spiritual healing, initiation, and transformation that awaits us, compared to if we were to enter the process blind and cold; also, this self-knowledge furthers our ability to create a clear and focused intention.

Our intention in taking plant medicine as a sacrament is a desire to commune with the Divine; how that manifests is uncertain. From experience, I can relate that the imagery you work with prior to the ceremony, as well as the type of images that resonate with your life, in general, can play a part in your experience, but not always. Still, I recommend surrounding yourself with pictures and objects that make you feel connected with your faith, are related to the experience you wish to have, and where the items make you feel safe and guided. All of this adds to your mindset and supports your wish for a spiritual experience.

To view plant medicine as a sacrament is to give it spiritual meaning and thus becomes part of our spiritual practice. One can include such a practice in any religious faith or way of life as the experience is meant to support the person’s existing beliefs. It will be up to your faith and the mindful work you do before and after the ceremony to connect and understand the spiritual significance of your experience and transformation. Additionally, working with plant medicine in this context, where it is perceived as a holy experience, will prevent the misuse of the plants.

Respect for the plants is paramount when using them as a sacrament. The reverence we give the plant medicines is directly related to the connection we feel toward our faith. When we ingest these plants, we are taking in their grace; we are committing ourselves to the journey they offer. In working with plant medicine, we surrender control of the process and open ourselves to their ability to heal us.

With the inclusion of plant medicine in our spiritual practice, we do not have to rely on faith alone to fulfill our spiritual yearnings of connection and curiosity. When we approach plant medicine in a sacrament, we commit to knowing and embodying the Divine — God — in a way that is real and meaningful.

With love,

Jeanne

If you enjoyed this article, you may want to read the book I wrote called, Unification: Bridging Your Ego and Divine Self Consciousness. In it, I describe a way of life shown to me by the Light bodies — angelic beings whom I encountered during meditation with plant medicine. For over a year, I worked with the Light bodies through channeling, meditation, and plant medicine, to give rise to the spiritual path called Unification.

Disclaimer:

This article does not promote or recommend the use of illegal drugs. Many of the substances referenced above are illegal in many countries including the United States. This article does not constitute medical advice. As always, please consult your doctor before taking any medicine.

First published on Samadhi.today for Medium